Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
After so many years
Been awhile that i last written something in this blog. Many years had passed and things changed so do i. I am actually stil surviving. lolz don't think tat anyone stil rem this especially my bf.
Wanted to express myself but realised i had no one to turn to tat y i decided to write here.
Not sure y, y m i angry w him. we r alright ytd.happily catching movie, having dinner, playing game tgt and even joking tgt but felt tat things changed aft i reached home. weird thinking had been flowing thru my mind. recalling things he said, telling me tat we shld catch a movie early coz he wanted to have early dinner n back home. but i was wrong he went out aft dropping me home. questions popping out frm my mind: "He wanted to send me home early coz he is meeting his frenz?" am i rite? or am i juz guess wrongly..? it really bothering me. Then today, asking him if there is any plan, replied no but end up having dinner, coffee w his frenz again...reason he will gave coz they got to meet clients after which. i really hated tat kind of feeling..really making me pissed and sad.
it seem like without me, he is living well..and i am bothering him or is he using me? wat is he treating me like now? but when i pushed for an answer things turn out differently? he will gave thousand of reasons tat i actually wrong. am i losing trust on him or i dun trust him long time ago?? y m i being so negative or m i seeking for something tat i last felt coz i no longer feel the passion for this relationship? feeling hurt n sad n even angry til tears drop.
Maybe i need attention frm someone frm him especially. if i throw my temper at him again, we will end up having a fight again. i had to control it..y m i thinking so much???? Cant i gave in..sometimes i really envy w ppl tat r loving. being held in his arm n feeling how impt u r in his life? is he doing tat or m i asking for more. being greedy??
pls take my anger and temper far away frm me. I hated it when they r there, making me an evil person which no one loves.=(
Wanted to express myself but realised i had no one to turn to tat y i decided to write here.
Not sure y, y m i angry w him. we r alright ytd.happily catching movie, having dinner, playing game tgt and even joking tgt but felt tat things changed aft i reached home. weird thinking had been flowing thru my mind. recalling things he said, telling me tat we shld catch a movie early coz he wanted to have early dinner n back home. but i was wrong he went out aft dropping me home. questions popping out frm my mind: "He wanted to send me home early coz he is meeting his frenz?" am i rite? or am i juz guess wrongly..? it really bothering me. Then today, asking him if there is any plan, replied no but end up having dinner, coffee w his frenz again...reason he will gave coz they got to meet clients after which. i really hated tat kind of feeling..really making me pissed and sad.
it seem like without me, he is living well..and i am bothering him or is he using me? wat is he treating me like now? but when i pushed for an answer things turn out differently? he will gave thousand of reasons tat i actually wrong. am i losing trust on him or i dun trust him long time ago?? y m i being so negative or m i seeking for something tat i last felt coz i no longer feel the passion for this relationship? feeling hurt n sad n even angry til tears drop.
Maybe i need attention frm someone frm him especially. if i throw my temper at him again, we will end up having a fight again. i had to control it..y m i thinking so much???? Cant i gave in..sometimes i really envy w ppl tat r loving. being held in his arm n feeling how impt u r in his life? is he doing tat or m i asking for more. being greedy??
pls take my anger and temper far away frm me. I hated it when they r there, making me an evil person which no one loves.=(
Thursday, July 20, 2006
20 JuLy 2006
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DEAR DEAR TODAY I REALLY DIN MEAN IT NOT TO MEET U ITS JUS TT I THINK TT TODAY IS THE BEST TIME TO MAKE U STAY AT HM N SEND U THE FLOWERS FOR OUR 1YR ANNI.....TODAY MORNING I REALLY PLAN TO DO TIS TO U SO HOPE U WILL REMEMBER TODAY.... I LOVE U ALWAYS.... MUACK
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
i'm back
woooooo...hmmmm..when is the last time i blog...wow..damn long..life changed seem 18feb2006..but i stil have to live on n i misses her alot alot..pain will always be dere..
I have to move on...i gotta find a job..**^^jia Yu woR!!^^**have been slacking since i graduated from sim..
I have to move on...i gotta find a job..**^^jia Yu woR!!^^**have been slacking since i graduated from sim..
Monday, March 13, 2006
waiting for result
times passes so fast..iz aready mid-march..i finish my sch..waiting for result..another 2 days my result is out..scared afraid nervous worry and many many feeling now..dunno whether i can make it not..hope i can..really hope i can...dun wan to waste another 3 months again..pls pray hard for me..
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
PrOmiSes madE
pROmiSes madE bY ******
1. dUn get bully by others
2. loVe Me deep n sincerely
3. care 4 mE foreva n eva
4. Not to lose TEMPER on me
5. noT to huRt mE
6. maDe everYday happy daY
7. wOn't gIve me aTtitudE
8. Meant wad u saY
9. sTay wiF me nO maTter wat
10. never ever leavE mE
11. tOleRatE mE
12. unDerstand mE
13. accepT waT i M
14. bRing mE to shoPpiN
15. aLways deRe 4 mE
tO B cOntinuE..
1. dUn get bully by others
2. loVe Me deep n sincerely
3. care 4 mE foreva n eva
4. Not to lose TEMPER on me
5. noT to huRt mE
6. maDe everYday happy daY
7. wOn't gIve me aTtitudE
8. Meant wad u saY
9. sTay wiF me nO maTter wat
10. never ever leavE mE
11. tOleRatE mE
12. unDerstand mE
13. accepT waT i M
14. bRing mE to shoPpiN
15. aLways deRe 4 mE
tO B cOntinuE..
Thursday, January 12, 2006
late night entry
12.30am i shld b on my bed but nonono stil hanging ard playing wif my comp..waitin 4 my dar call..he's playin billard now..abandon me at home...nah..not tat la..juz now went shoppin wif my 2 cousins..neber been shoppin tgt..i tink..so happy..misses our old days..havin fun tgt..but not now..we got our own stuffs to do..haiz..nvm den..we got ourselves a same bubble skirt juz for our elder cousin wedding tis sun 15jan2005..gotta pick his bride up n receptionist in the evening..so we decided to wear someting similar..hehe..sad..we din manage to get top 4 ourselves..no time..shop all closing..so we went wisma foodcourt named "?? republic"duno the exact name of the place to drink someting n went home..on my way home iz started to rain very very heavy n i dun haf umbrella poor girl..wanna take a cab but no cab..managed to take a bus home but iz started raining heavily again..caught in the busstop..wanna to take a cab again to my hse but not cab..so suan man..so waited for 1/2hr to stop n iz stil rainin but smaller so i walked back home..wasted my time at the busstop..n now iz stop raining..kaoz..tat is my night today..stil waitin 4 my dar to call..
Sunday, January 08, 2006
my 1st entry in 2006
today the 8th jan 2006
again iz take me so long to blog..been very buz tis few week aft i came back from bangbok on 19th dec 2005..
6 days away from home..n the funny part is we missed the return flight..iz suppose to be 7.05AM..iz was damn early n tired coz we almost everyday slept abt 3AM which is 4AM in Singapore timing..n our organizers mistaken tat the flight was 7.45am..so by the time we reach the plane aready at the runway..so our poor organizers had to buy 5 return tixs..omg..n cost them nearly $1k..*faint**..the flight was 5.45pm n iz was abt 12pm so we went to the hotel n sleep at the same time took our lunch opp our hotel**shiok**so everyting back to normal..reach s'pore at abt 10..everyone were so tired esp my dar sleep all the way to s'pore..he muz b very tired..snorin kinda loud too..opps..[i shldn't say tis out]anyway my holiday trip was very fun get to shop n buy myself alot of stuffs..yippeee..my dar too..hopefully he got his stuffs too..poor boy got to carry all my stuffs..not alot la..juz a few onli..hehe..=p
**Thanks for ur everythings**
back home..i was so buz got to take care of my housechores,help my dad, visit my mum in hospital as she was sick..tat was when me n my dar started to quarrel coz i dun haf time 4 him..iz was tough but stil hopin tat ting wil work out soon..stressed..
one of the issue is tat i sprained my leg n i stil go to work wif my dad n my dar got pissed off coz he tink tat i shld rest at home..but din listen to him so we quarrelled..haiz..tat few days tings get our ways..always quarrel at night on the fone..n i was so tired til i fell asleep during our quarrel!! worse..
luckily sch started on 3rd jan 2006..tings now are abit abit stable..but i had to rush home to feed my mum coz she in tube due to throat infection..always cough when she swallow food or drink..*+sad+* [pray hard tat she can get well soon]
bad news is I GOT TO COOK EVERYDAY!!!
good news is mY FAMILY LIKES MY COOKING..stil eatable..wow..
ok i got to stop now..going to take a nap woke up at 8am on SUNDAY..
..here is some pic taken during darz' cousin wedding dinner..wif his dad n mum..tat was the 1st time i saw his dad..they look alike lor..too bad i din take pic wif him if not i wil proof u!
again iz take me so long to blog..been very buz tis few week aft i came back from bangbok on 19th dec 2005..
6 days away from home..n the funny part is we missed the return flight..iz suppose to be 7.05AM..iz was damn early n tired coz we almost everyday slept abt 3AM which is 4AM in Singapore timing..n our organizers mistaken tat the flight was 7.45am..so by the time we reach the plane aready at the runway..so our poor organizers had to buy 5 return tixs..omg..n cost them nearly $1k..*faint**..the flight was 5.45pm n iz was abt 12pm so we went to the hotel n sleep at the same time took our lunch opp our hotel**shiok**so everyting back to normal..reach s'pore at abt 10..everyone were so tired esp my dar sleep all the way to s'pore..he muz b very tired..snorin kinda loud too..opps..[i shldn't say tis out]anyway my holiday trip was very fun get to shop n buy myself alot of stuffs..yippeee..my dar too..hopefully he got his stuffs too..poor boy got to carry all my stuffs..not alot la..juz a few onli..hehe..=p
**Thanks for ur everythings**
back home..i was so buz got to take care of my housechores,help my dad, visit my mum in hospital as she was sick..tat was when me n my dar started to quarrel coz i dun haf time 4 him..iz was tough but stil hopin tat ting wil work out soon..stressed..
one of the issue is tat i sprained my leg n i stil go to work wif my dad n my dar got pissed off coz he tink tat i shld rest at home..but din listen to him so we quarrelled..haiz..tat few days tings get our ways..always quarrel at night on the fone..n i was so tired til i fell asleep during our quarrel!! worse..
luckily sch started on 3rd jan 2006..tings now are abit abit stable..but i had to rush home to feed my mum coz she in tube due to throat infection..always cough when she swallow food or drink..*+sad+* [pray hard tat she can get well soon]
bad news is I GOT TO COOK EVERYDAY!!!
good news is mY FAMILY LIKES MY COOKING..stil eatable..wow..
ok i got to stop now..going to take a nap woke up at 8am on SUNDAY..
..here is some pic taken during darz' cousin wedding dinner..wif his dad n mum..tat was the 1st time i saw his dad..they look alike lor..too bad i din take pic wif him if not i wil proof u!
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
oFf to Bangkok
wAu..to9 i'm flying off to BAngkok..left 2 more hours i going to airport to check in liao..claire picking me up from my house..she is drivin..doing nothing so i decide to blog..anyway i'm got photo to share..went zoo n blading durin my holidays..oh ya tomo i gettin my result n i'm in Bangkok already!!!! how how...omg..ok time to load sum photos..
weLcOme tO
dO u noe wad is dat? aN egg??
i tInk iT is pRayIng 2 gOd
mE n mY daR
tRying to Be fUnnI
i LoVe hidIng beHinD hIm
niD a deEr fOr X'Mas?
mE n yOU
tix or dRinK anYone?
now iz hiS tuRn staYin bEhinD mE
bReakFast aT kFc
got stop here le..to get aready le..seeya next monday..i bring back pic 4 u guys..
weLcOme tO
dO u noe wad is dat? aN egg??
i tInk iT is pRayIng 2 gOd
mE n mY daR
tRying to Be fUnnI
i LoVe hidIng beHinD hIm
mE n yOU 
tix or dRinK anYone?
now iz hiS tuRn staYin bEhinD mE
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Neglecting mY blog
iz almos a month i have not been bloggin..so buz wif my ting erm..not sure iz it true..haha..partly oso beri lazy lo..ned to spend more time wif my darlng..so my exam over again..left last semester to go n i m FREE...but have to start lookin 4 job..sianz..finish my exam last friday..now iz HoLidays...omg taat iz fast man..hmm..wad m i doin le?? stil tinkin.. oh ya i oso change my blog skin n i dun like it=<><3*pinky**
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